Today while i was waiting for 154 at Boon Lay Interchange, i saw bus loads and bus loads of students alighting from 179. (just in case you are not aware, 179 travels between boon lay interchange and NTU. kinda like the bus for NTU students.)
Suddenly, i feel so wanted to be one of them.
To study in NTU, to enjoy the student life AGAIN, to enjoy subsidised concession fares, to go to lecture hall for lecture, to take part in student orentation.... but too bad, my results are not good enough..
I feel so disappointed in myself, i cant even get into a local university. I didnt work hard enough in poly? too late to regret now.

I know you guys must be thinking that why am i still persistent on this?
Its just a dream or goal that i have to get into NTU or NUS. it just feels different, i dont know how to describe to you.
I feel so uncapable...
(so friends who are reading this, pls treasure this opportunity if you are still a full-time student)

i am just grumbling. ignore me.
on and off this happens. i am talking to myself.